It’s imperative to your healing that you learn to validate yourself. Your appearance, your intelligence, your worth, etc. The compliments you seek from others may never come; the desire for them may even be used to manipulate you. Take back your power. Be your own cheerleader.
Some people have groomed to take pride in how much abuse they can tolerate, how long they can silently bear mistreatment, and how many times they’ve been “the bigger person.” This is a trauma response. Doormats and punching bags don’t get any rewards. Be selfish. Save yourself.